ramblings of a madman

my coworker just ate 37 breadsticks.
whoops now 38.

busty mousepad

reminds me of how unit 15 mate bill used to think my wrist gel pad felt like a boob.
damn i wish this idea dawned on me earlier...

When you're on a holiday
You can't find the words to say
All the things that come to you
And I wanna feel it too

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can't control my brain

When you're on a golden sea
You don't need no memory
Just a place to call your own
As we drift into the zone

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can't control my brain

We'll run away together
We'll spend some time forever
We'll never feel bad anymore

agh i'm so frustrated right now. i just came off of a great weekend (which i will describe in more detail in a bit), but i'm at work so i wanna keep this short. i'm starting to feel like i still haven't gotten my life together yet. and all my friends are all over the place and so few are here in nyc. i miss having a car and i miss having family nearby. and most of all i miss having friends to go hang out and just do random things with. what happened to just picking up your things and leaving for fun trips on a whim? no more calling up buddies to go see a movie whenever we wanted or going out to grab a bite to eat. i miss those college days -- i miss driving my '95 champagne-colored taurus. and most of all i miss being with close friends -- you know who you are.

hello brown my alma mater.
i am here. bryant are michelle sitting next to me.
i just learned about bloglines.com.
coolness.

i pretty much reverted to my old self this weekend. got all introverted and sad and now i'm back to square one. just how things were 3.5 months ago. i guess now i've got more things i can focus on... b-ball, gym, etc. but feeling sad again just the same.

imagine if presidential elections were won by rap battles... for some reason i feel like dean wouldn't be good at it.

this president you be electin
you know i will be pressin
he don't even know which country he's correctin

w.m. dees? can you show me please?
shut up fool and get down on your knees
(at least we got monica down on her knees)
can someone please give us a president that leads

cuz the g.o.p.'s gonna be o.p.p.'d
(cuz i'm down with o.p.p. yeah you know me)
(who's down with o.p.p. every last homie)
(who's down with o.p.p. all the homies)

the g.o.p. d.o.a. by j.f.k.
watch out bush because you're about to be bushwacked
/peace

(i watched eight mile tonight. gotta find some rap battles in the city now.)

yo/yo yo/representin' the 781/here we go

yo, so i'm in nyc/this shit's pretty crazy
no wait hear me out/there's a woman who thinks i'm a nazi
but fuck that/who gives a fuck about some old lady
gee, grandma/show some slack/you're gonna be the bitch that'll be slapped
that's right/5 gs/because i'm suing your ass
for mental harm and injury

aight yo/so you think that's serious
wait till you hear about something delirious
you think you got it bad/i've got a troll in my pad
i hear shit at night/that's right/something's not right/my apartment's got me in fright

let them all suffer/yo that woman that man that thing next door
fuck them all/i hope they all get wrung
they all deserve a beating/i don't pay 1.5gs a month for nothing
i'll sue all your asses/that's what it's all about
212 nyc you're crazy i'm out
/peace

checked out latin dance yesterday at the nysc (6:15pm on tuesday's @ 86th/lex location). it was so fun! there were about 20 girls and 4 of us guys and we were all clustered at the back of the studio. i kept messing up the steps and had trouble following since it was my first time taking this class, but i was smiling the whole time... plus i recognized most of the music the teacher played. let's see... we danced mambo, cha-cha, some afro-cuban thing, salsa, merengue, and some other stuff i can't remember. i can't wait to go to next week's class!

Computer addict dies at screen

A computer game addict in western China collapsed and died at his screen after playing the popular online game Saga non-stop for 20 hours, a news report said today.

The 31-year-old began playing the game regularly at an internet cafe in Chengdu, Sichuan province, three months before his death, according to the South China Morning Post.

An employee at the cafe said he would play for more than 10 hours a day and was found dead on Saturday morning after a marathon 20-hour session, the newspaper said.

i went to the american indian community center yesterday for a free meditation session. the type of meditation is called sahaja yoga and it promotes self-realization. it was started in 1970 by an indian woman named shri mataji. there's a concept that within each of us there is a "mother" or a "kundalini" that may be awakened through self-awareness. kind of reminds me of neon genesis evangelion...

if anyone in the nyc is interested, drop me an e-mail. the group meets every monday at 7:00 pm at 404 lafayette, 8th floor.

off gizmodo.com, a light bulb that purifies the air as well as provides 6000 hours of light! i wonder how well this would improve my living situation (ie. smoking neighbor)... site is here: http://www.ozonelite.com/index.html

read an article on gothamist.com (a great site, btw) that mentioned a new book out called "the sexual organization of the city." it writes about the social and dating scene in chicago, but can apply to any city. it says: "In such a huge city... singles tend to move in very small circles and go to the same places - severely limiting their dating options." it also says there are two types of neighborhoods, "transactional" and "relational," for short-term and long-term relationships, respectively. this is not new news. but it mentions that you'd have better luck dating outside of a city like new york. hmmm, this is definitely a book i want to check out.

well seeing i haven't actually tried out the dating scene in nyc, and haven't really had the opportunity to, it seems that now it would be a great time to do so. for the next two weeks i'm going to try out new things in the city, try to meet as many random people as i can, and perhaps test out the internet dating scene (that's perhaps). if i fail, oh well! i'll probably end up freaking out a lot of people but hey, that's what experimenting is for right?

i woke up about half an hour ago. yup, it's 4 am right now. i haven't been up this "early" in the morning for the longest time. i'm contemplating staying up and reading. but look, i'm typing in my blog!

i fell asleep at about 11 pm feeling like to puke so bad. but i didn't. but if it were school or if i had a roommate i would have totally puked. reason being, i didn't want to puke and feel sorry for myself by myself... kind of made me feel more depressed than i already was. oh well.

i just had a realization this week that i really have no goal right now in my life. everyone i know is either in school right now or trying to get into grad school. maybe i'm hanging out with the wrong crowd? i seriously feel like this work thing is getting me no where...

"everybody wants to rule the world..."